GRWM (get ready with me)

 

 

Just popping in to share with all of you the latest video I posted on my youtube channel .

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In the future I'd like to include a list of products used and possibly pictures in case anyone (or myself) would like to reference back to what I used but not actually have to watch the whole video to find out. Unfortunately with me posting this on my break at work it just doesn't leave me with enough time. I just wanted to let you know that these kinds of posts will be more detailed in the future for your viewing pleasure :) Also, is it bothering anyone else that my hair is not perfectly straight on the one side and its looping or doing its own thing? No? Just me? Ok then.

Regular or Dark Roast?

Let’s have coffee!

 

If you were to come over to my “house” (I live in an apartment but always call it a house, it just flows in conversation better) for coffee this is what it might look like:

If we were comfortable with each other you would know to come in the back door so I wouldn’t have to buzz you in, in which case the first sign of your arrival would be your knock on the door. At that point I would yell for you to come in and you could let yourself in. If we were super comfortable with each other you would knock and just walk in because you know just how lazy I am.

If we didn’t know each other super well you would probably enter through the front door in which case you would have to be buzzed in. I’d try to work my buzzing contraption and it may not work the first time. You might wonder what is taking me so long to buzz you in, you may stand in the cold awkwardly or uncomfortably for a few beats before you decide to press the buzzer again. I would then at that point hopefully have figured out my temperamental contraption and have successfully buzzed you in. You would then walk up 3 flights of stairs and knock on my door waiting for me to answer it as you catch your breath. I’d open the door and welcome you in, you might make a remark about how out of shape you are and I would reassure you it happens to everyone but fortunately I am used to it and those stairs are now a breeze for me.

I’d guide you into my living room and we would sit down on my sectional, I would pick the spot I don’t usually sit in and this will make me feel weird, I won’t say anything about it though.  Then I would remember I should offer you coffee and if we were comfortable with each other you would already know to make it yourself because again, I’m a horribly lazy host. However, if we weren’t comfortable with each other or just met I would get up and ask you how you like your coffee. I would brew it in my Tassimo and I’d offer you regular or dark roast.  I would offer you whipping cream or powdered cream and then possibly tell you about how I finally (after months and months and months) remembered to pick up powdered cream so that I had a backup for when my whipping cream was out.

I wouldn’t offer you any food, I wouldn’t even think about it or think it to be rude. If I had thought about it I would hope you weren’t hungry but since I most likely hadn’t thought about it obviously I wouldn’t care (and I mean that in the nicest way possible).

I would ask you how you are doing, if you aren’t much of a talker you would say “good and you?”  and I would take that as an invitation to tell you how I truly am doing because I like to talk. I would most likely tell you about my work situation, that I am out of a job in a week with nothing lined up for after. I would tell you that I hope I don’t go too long without a job because I don’t have any other source of income and we were finally able to start catching up from me being off work for 6 months during the summer. I would also tell you that I’m not worried though, that I truly have put my faith in God and I know He has a plan for me. So He will tell me where He wants me to go in His own time. I would tell you that I will wait patiently and I will see where God takes me. Then I might tell you that a year ago this wouldn’t have been an easy task for me, I would have been worried and budgeting and getting frustrated because my budgeting wouldn’t work without a job. I would be stressed about the unknown and the lack of prospect jobs.

That conversation would remind me of personal growth and I would possibly tell you about how my patience tolerance has been getting better. I would tell you about how I prayed for the job I have now, that I wanted it so badly, that I begged God to make this be the job I was to get. And then when I got it I was so upset because it wasn’t what I thought it would be but I put my faith in God and I LISTENED (for ONCE in my life lol) and I stuck it out and this job ended up being a blessing in disguise. I would tell you how work has tested my patience and I have exceeded my own expectations with flying colors.  I would tell you how it took me almost 3 months to realize it was God answering my prayers because I had prayed for exactly that- patience J

Maybe at that point you would have something to say and we would talk about your life happenings. We would maybe talk about the weather but I would hope not since that is so generic and since you know me well enough to come to my house for coffee I would expect we don’t need to speak generically. I wouldn’t tell you this but you would just find out on your own, if you had any reservations about coming over for fear of nothing to talk about, those fears would melt away after you see just how much I can talk. We might get on the subject of makeup because from your place on the couch you would be able to look directly into my makeup room. You might ask who’s room is that and I would respond with “mine!” You would look confused because you would know I am married and then I would go on to explain. I would even take you into the room itself and I’d open drawers for you to look into and I’d watch your facial expressions when you see just how much makeup I have. I would be a little embarrassed and also a little proud, I wouldn’t tell you that though. You might say you would never know what to do with so much makeup and I would tell you I just keep wanting more and more. I might make my justifications to you or I might just let it be. You might take that opportunity to ask me some makeup related questions and I would offer my best advice.

After we sat back on the couch I would tell you I make YouTube videos and that would launch a whole social media conversation. I would most definitely ask you if you have Vine and if you said no I would make you download it. I would first tell you to follow me and then after that I would tell you to look at who I am following and just follow all of those people. I would gauge your sense of humor and if I thought it appropriate  I would then show you vines from my favorite viner Tom Vrab (and if you have not seen his vines you must go watch them immeditately!). If your sense of humor was not at all like mine I would maybe refrain from talking about Vine at all lol...

Our conversation would most definitely turn to TV, I would ask you if you have seen The Walking Dead and if you had we would delve into a passionate conversation and I would ask you who you hope dies next (never would I thought I would ask such questions, what has TV turned me into ?! Who am I!? Oh well I love it). I would tell you my favorite character is Daryl and I would guess that yours is Glen.  I would then proceed to ask if you have ever seen Sons of Anarchy and I would gasp in shock if you said no. As I walk over to my drawer of TV seasons I would offer to borrow them to you immediately not really taking no for an answer.

As our coffee date winds down I would tell you I had a lot of fun and we should definitely do it again sometime. I wouldn’t be lying either because I wouldn’t say it otherwise. You would agree because you think I’m so awesome ;)

First Video

I have set a few goals for myself to upload videos to my YouTube channel more often ( my channel ) and with that I'd like to dedicate posts on my blog specifically to my channel and kind of direct traffic more easily, with more 'flow' if you will. This is my first time uploading a YouTube video to my blog so I'm a bit nervous and a bit excited to see if I did this correctly lol! I'm not going to make any promises but I do have another video edited and I'm hoping to be able to upload it today so be on the look out for that. It would be uploaded to my YouTube channel first before it would reach my blog though just an FYI. I'll keep the talking to a minimum and just let the video do that talking for me :) 

 

 

 

 

 

Hope you enjoyed the video and have a great day. Today is my Dad's Birthday so we will be heading over there in the evening for supper and cake!

Resolutions

I know, I know, I know New Years resolutions in February?!?!  Well I got the idea after watching a youtube video to do a few resolutions and that was after New Years and I wanted to put some thought into it before just posting whatever came to mind. So after a great deal of thought (1 month to be exact) I have narrowed down my list! Would you like to read it? I'm sure you're just jonesing for a list so who am I to deprive you of that?

First a bit of back story:

I recently got a job after 6 months of being on unemployment so we are currently playing catch up. Unfortunately this is a term position so by the end of this month I will need to have another job lined up. If/when I get this new (permanent) job I plan on getting internet installed at our place and that way I can blog more consistently from home instead of sporadically at work. That being said, here we have The List:

2014 New Years Resolutions

-Blog more consistently (I wont put a certain number of posts per week but I'd like to at least aim for twice a week for now).
-Upload YouTube videos more consistently Again, wont be specific but I'd like to aim for once a week for now).
-Become more tech savvy in the world of blogging.
-Work on making my blog look more visually appealing (lots of ideas in the works for this!)
-Expand my makeup knowledge and techniques and go outside my comfort zones (this is for self growth and also to help the growth of my YouTube channel as well as when friends ask me to do their makeup for functions (which is happening more and more) ).
-Stop setting unrealistic savings plans (ie. setting a date to have X amount of $) and instead focus on making weekly budgets and just putting money into savings as I go and see where I end up (I'd like to thank my friend Nellie for opening my eyes to this).
-Taking more pictures with my actual camera as opposed to my camera on my phone (this one will prove to be difficult I already know).
-Being more active in terms of not just sitting on my couch after work in the evenings, go out, be with people, go to the gym, whatever!
-Being more active in my Christianity. Not just opening my Bible on days of Bible study.
-Read more (I don't know what it is but I have not been in the mood and I have a stack of books that is just piling up).



That is all for my resolutions. I could add way more to that list but I'll just keep it to this so I don't get overwhelmed. I have this feeling that 2014 isn't going to be a good year for me so if I can focus on these few things then maybe they can help to brighten up my days. I'd really like to grow my blog and my youtube channel so I know that will be exciting for me. Of course I'll be also focusing on bettering myself as a person but this isn't just a resolution this is an every day of my life type thing.

I think that is all for now and I hope to be posting a another post next week!

Ps. my YouTube channel is BeautyByDez2 if you're interested in checking it out ;)

Pps. Sorry for the lack of pictures, I'm not blogging from home, there will definitely be more picture filled posts in the future though, just bare with me!

Self Work

            I just found out that an ex-boyfriend of mine moved into town ( I say town loosely because it’s actually a city, but I was a part of it when it transitioned from a town into a city. So to me it is still “town”). Normally this wouldn’t bother me, well ok, I can’t actually say it bothers me now either but in this case I gave it a second thought, and a third and a fourth thought as opposed to all other ex-boyfriends who wouldn’t even get one thought. The reason this person occupied so much of my head space is because I got to thinking how a person can change another person so drastically. My first thought when I heard he had moved was “great, now I might run into the ass” And then I got to thinking why I thought he is an ass. Our relationship had been toxic, it was not healthy at all. But it wasn’t like that in the beginning. I suppose no relationship is, after a while you get comfortable and start being your true self, only I don’t think who he became was his true self, and I  don’t think that of myself either. We became angry with each other, cynical and jealous all the time. That jealousy drove the relationship to be toxic. Obviously there was a lack of trust, did that mean him or I couldn’t trust other people? Of course not, and that is why it makes me sad to know that me as a person made another person become full of such jealousy. Am I making sense?

                I’m not saying I would go be friends with the guy now, there were a few other factors that ended the relationship and then a few things afterwards that made it just an awful ending but I am saying that it makes me think twice about trying to be the best person I can be. I feel like I’m constantly being reminded to be a better person, and I don’t mean that in a negative way. I mean that as I’ve set goals for myself and I constantly slip but I’m always trying to build myself forward and these reminders are a blessing to me.  Looking back on this relationship has helped me to look forward with my marriage. Am I being the person I want to be in my marriage? I can tell you now I am falling very short of that. But that’s ok because I’m always reminded and I’m always building forward. It’s not something I get down on myself about like I once would, it’s something I take as constructive.

                Anyway, back to this past relationship. So , you know how when you spend enough time with a person you start picking up on their habits or way they say things and stuff like that? Well behaviour can be the same. I remember when me and this guy had broken up and I started dating my husband, and me and Mark got into an argument and I was so surprised when he wanted to deal with the problem right away and put it behind us. I was shocked actually, it was so refreshing. Because in my previous relationship that problem would have been held in for a matter of time and then come exploding out in a yelling rage and not dealt with properly at all… or get solved for that matter. But fast forward 5 years and the problems get held in again, there’s a lack of communication on both parts. See a common denominator here? Took me a while to realize it, 5 years to be exact.  I think I need to work on myself in more ways then I thought.

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So that's all for now! I have another post I'm working on coming your way. I was hoping to be able to attach images to it and I don't know if I will with the location I'm in right now so I will either do my next post with some visual appeal but I might not, either way there is a post coming later today!

 

Hope you all have a fantastic day :)