Friday 4 April 2014

The Internets

Good news people… I’m getting internet installed at my place!! Well we have everything set in place to get it installed so it should be actually installed in the next week or two. I’m SO excited about this. Not only do I get to catch up on all the shows I've missed (heheh), I get to start focusing on making my blog better. That actually means a lot to me, this is a space I created to be able to get my thoughts down and out there that’s different than the conventional “journaling.” I do still journal though, those thoughts are not for the public lol. I also like having this space to share things, things that I like or find, am currently using. It’s also a place for me to vent or to enlighten or just to talk. And I want to make it the best space I can, one that I’m proud of.
For today though this is probably going to a boring picture-less post… well hopefully the content isn't boring lol. I have recently started a new job, I am 3 weeks in at this point and I just wanted to share my experience. Before even applying for this job I was praying that God would lead me to where I was supposed to be. I had complete confidence He would too. I was put in a situation where I would normally worry and stress but instead I was calm and completely at peace. Because I knew.. I knew God was taking better care of me then I could myself. So I did what I could do, such as applying at places and going for interviews. I asked God to make it so I wouldn't get any phone calls after an interview if I wasn't supposed to work there, I promised Him this wouldn't make me feel rejected and that is what I wanted. He complied and so did I. One day I caught myself wondering why no one was calling me and thinking I wasn't good enough but then God reminded me of my promise and I immediately stopped. Boy do I feel better for that too, I can’t tell you how easy it is for me to doubt myself.
Then I had an interview at the place I’m working at now and I wanted this job so bad, it seemed perfect for me. It seems God was thinking the same thing because they called me so I took it. My first 2 days were great and I was learning so much and everything was sticking in this brain of mine pretty good. Then came the third, fourth and fifth days. They were filled with a lot of negativity and it made me start to doubt my choices. Then the second week I opened up to the women training me and we talked about the negativity and we both told each other we were Christians and it sorta made me feel good to know that. I told her how I felt God was telling me to take this job and she told me that God had told her not to take this job but she had taken it anyway. When she told me that it started to make me think this wasn't a good place to be. In the days to come I would learn that God has a plan for all of us (ok, I already knew that part but just keep on reading), and that doesn't mean that his plan for one person is the same for another. This women wasn't supposed to work here, it was obvious in so many ways, and a friend of mine said to me that maybe I was supposed to work here so that she wouldn't have to anymore. I do believe that, but I also believe that I am supposed to be here because this is the right job for me. In that next week and then this week as well I've been getting comfortable in my position here and I really like it. I click really well with my bosses wife (well she’s my boss too I guess and she’s here quite a bit so it’s good we click). I actually see a lot of me in her and it’s pretty cool. She doesn't know that though lol. I actually really like my boss too, I say actually because I was afraid to come to an interview here just because he looks so intimidating. Man I tell ya, looks certainly can be deceiving! My boss is a big man who wears a scowl most of the time, even the way he talks his tone sounds… very forward and to the point. But after you spend even a day around him you notice that he likes to joke around, he likes to just stand by your desk and have a conversation and the thing I like the most about him is that you can openly see how much he loves his wife. The way he talks about her when she isn't here and the way he talks to her when she is here. He cares about her and its so heartwarming to see that in people. It puts my mind at ease to see that’s the way he treats women, I work in a place where it’s all men except for when his wife is here so it’s definitely a big plus when you get treated with respect.

I also wanted to touch base on how my emotions have been through all of this. So before I took this job I was working a temp job at a different office. I really liked working there but at the same time it was a challenge. I worked in an open office with about 9 other people. So there were constantly people around and that wasn't something I was used to. It was nice to have a variety of different people to talk to and I really do miss the coffee breaks around the front counter where everyone joked around and had basically the same sense of humor. At the same time having so many people around could sometimes be taxing as well, almost as if I would have so much energy sucked out of me each day just by having to have responses to everyone who talked to me. That might not be why I was so tired but I felt so drained when I went home every single day. I was tired of being tired. Working in the office I do now I’m alone most of the time but my boss is in and out and customers come in all the time so I’m not alone all of the time but I have a lot of my own time to do my work in peace. On my first day I had gone home and I had so much energy I even went out for coffee. On a Monday! I was shocked lol. That right there showed me that this weight had been lifted off my shoulders and I felt like I could breathe again. In the other place I worked I had messed up a few things I had been working on and I think that did a number on my confidence so that was difficult to deal with. Where I am now I know the accounting program a lot better and I’ve actually been able to make a few changes already that make things run a little more efficiently. How’s that for a confidence booster?! So things had a rocky start due to me fighting within myself and with God but things have worked themselves out like they seem to always do. 

I feel like this is the beginning of something really great and I feel good with where I am in life right now. Maybe this year isn't going to be so bad after all ;)

Speaking of, this year has been shaping up to be a pretty good one. It started off with my Dad having surgery on his brain and after that all went well and his first day back at work was yesterday, that has kind of been a huge relief. My job situation has sorted itself out and I feel comfortable and confident which is awesome. After 3 months of working here we want to look into buying a house so that's exciting in itself. One of my friends moved back here from Alberta so that's awesome. Oh ya, I'm going to Backstreet Boys next month! OH YA I'm not sure if I've mentioned this but it is official that I will be going to New York this year... in 4 months to be exact. I am so beyond excited you have no idea. My husband and I are going with another couple. This time we plan to hit the places we didn't get a chance to last time and also to sorta check out New York as a local instead of a tourist. I think it's going to be so much fun. I'll probably have a few posts about it leading up to the date because I just love talking about it!!

Oh look, a picture! 


I think that is all for today, I hope everyone has a really great weekend!