The Internets

Good news people… I’m getting internet installed at my place!! Well we have everything set in place to get it installed so it should be actually installed in the next week or two. I’m SO excited about this. Not only do I get to catch up on all the shows I've missed (heheh), I get to start focusing on making my blog better. That actually means a lot to me, this is a space I created to be able to get my thoughts down and out there that’s different than the conventional “journaling.” I do still journal though, those thoughts are not for the public lol. I also like having this space to share things, things that I like or find, am currently using. It’s also a place for me to vent or to enlighten or just to talk. And I want to make it the best space I can, one that I’m proud of.

For today though this is probably going to a boring picture-less post… well hopefully the content isn't boring lol. I have recently started a new job, I am 3 weeks in at this point and I just wanted to share my experience. Before even applying for this job I was praying that God would lead me to where I was supposed to be. I had complete confidence He would too. I was put in a situation where I would normally worry and stress but instead I was calm and completely at peace. Because I knew.. I knew God was taking better care of me then I could myself. So I did what I could do, such as applying at places and going for interviews. I asked God to make it so I wouldn't get any phone calls after an interview if I wasn't supposed to work there, I promised Him this wouldn't make me feel rejected and that is what I wanted. He complied and so did I. One day I caught myself wondering why no one was calling me and thinking I wasn't good enough but then God reminded me of my promise and I immediately stopped. Boy do I feel better for that too, I can’t tell you how easy it is for me to doubt myself.

Then I had an interview at the place I’m working at now and I wanted this job so bad, it seemed perfect for me. It seems God was thinking the same thing because they called me so I took it. My first 2 days were great and I was learning so much and everything was sticking in this brain of mine pretty good. Then came the third, fourth and fifth days. They were filled with a lot of negativity and it made me start to doubt my choices. Then the second week I opened up to the women training me and we talked about the negativity and we both told each other we were Christians and it sorta made me feel good to know that. I told her how I felt God was telling me to take this job and she told me that God had told her not to take this job but she had taken it anyway. When she told me that it started to make me think this wasn't a good place to be. In the days to come I would learn that God has a plan for all of us (ok, I already knew that part but just keep on reading), and that doesn't mean that his plan for one person is the same for another. This women wasn't supposed to work here, it was obvious in so many ways, and a friend of mine said to me that maybe I was supposed to work here so that she wouldn't have to anymore. I do believe that, but I also believe that I am supposed to be here because this is the right job for me. In that next week and then this week as well I've been getting comfortable in my position here and I really like it. I click really well with my bosses wife (well she’s my boss too I guess and she’s here quite a bit so it’s good we click). I actually see a lot of me in her and it’s pretty cool. She doesn't know that though lol. I actually really like my boss too, I say actually because I was afraid to come to an interview here just because he looks so intimidating. Man I tell ya, looks certainly can be deceiving! My boss is a big man who wears a scowl most of the time, even the way he talks his tone sounds… very forward and to the point. But after you spend even a day around him you notice that he likes to joke around, he likes to just stand by your desk and have a conversation and the thing I like the most about him is that you can openly see how much he loves his wife. The way he talks about her when she isn't here and the way he talks to her when she is here. He cares about her and its so heartwarming to see that in people. It puts my mind at ease to see that’s the way he treats women, I work in a place where it’s all men except for when his wife is here so it’s definitely a big plus when you get treated with respect.

I also wanted to touch base on how my emotions have been through all of this. So before I took this job I was working a temp job at a different office. I really liked working there but at the same time it was a challenge. I worked in an open office with about 9 other people. So there were constantly people around and that wasn't something I was used to. It was nice to have a variety of different people to talk to and I really do miss the coffee breaks around the front counter where everyone joked around and had basically the same sense of humor. At the same time having so many people around could sometimes be taxing as well, almost as if I would have so much energy sucked out of me each day just by having to have responses to everyone who talked to me. That might not be why I was so tired but I felt so drained when I went home every single day. I was tired of being tired. Working in the office I do now I’m alone most of the time but my boss is in and out and customers come in all the time so I’m not alone all of the time but I have a lot of my own time to do my work in peace. On my first day I had gone home and I had so much energy I even went out for coffee. On a Monday! I was shocked lol. That right there showed me that this weight had been lifted off my shoulders and I felt like I could breathe again. In the other place I worked I had messed up a few things I had been working on and I think that did a number on my confidence so that was difficult to deal with. Where I am now I know the accounting program a lot better and I’ve actually been able to make a few changes already that make things run a little more efficiently. How’s that for a confidence booster?! So things had a rocky start due to me fighting within myself and with God but things have worked themselves out like they seem to always do. 

I feel like this is the beginning of something really great and I feel good with where I am in life right now. Maybe this year isn't going to be so bad after all ;)

Speaking of, this year has been shaping up to be a pretty good one. It started off with my Dad having surgery on his brain and after that all went well and his first day back at work was yesterday, that has kind of been a huge relief. My job situation has sorted itself out and I feel comfortable and confident which is awesome. After 3 months of working here we want to look into buying a house so that's exciting in itself. One of my friends moved back here from Alberta so that's awesome. Oh ya, I'm going to Backstreet Boys next month! OH YA I'm not sure if I've mentioned this but it is official that I will be going to New York this year... in 4 months to be exact. I am so beyond excited you have no idea. My husband and I are going with another couple. This time we plan to hit the places we didn't get a chance to last time and also to sorta check out New York as a local instead of a tourist. I think it's going to be so much fun. I'll probably have a few posts about it leading up to the date because I just love talking about it!!

Oh look, a picture! 

I think that is all for today, I hope everyone has a really great weekend!

Huge Haul

 

Hello all! Some exciting news for me to share, I got a job! Well I have a job lined up for when I'm done the job I'm currently at. I couldn't be more excited because this means that I get to go shopping and not feel bad about it. Also, it means my New York trip we're planning is a definite yes... now my only obstacle is to tell my new boss that I need some time off in summer lol. Hopefully that goes over well. And it also means that we will be getting internet at home so I can start putting more effort into my blog and YoutTube channel. I'm so excited to start working there I feel like it's exactly where I am supposed to be. I prayed so much about finding a job and I applied at places and had great interviews but I wasn't getting anything. I had asked God not to let anyone call me after an interview if I wasn't supposed to work there and I promised I wouldn't feel bad about it. Like you know, wonder why they didn't want you after an interview that went so well. This company called me after the interview and I didn't even hesitate because I knew. And obviously God knows how indecisive I can be with big decisions so He made this pretty easy for me and I couldn't be more grateful!

 

I received a package yesterday, or rather I received the card telling me I have a package waiting at the post office. When I went to go get it I was 4 mins late and the person refused to give me the package so now I have to wait until I'm done work today to get it and I am ddyyyyiinnnnnggggg to get my hands on it. Isn't that dumb? I know exactly what it is and I know I will have it in my hands in a few hours but it is just killing me inside. I guess my future kind of rides on this package as well but more on that when the time is right ;)

 

 

In the mean time I will post for you a video of stuffs that I got! I'm not bragging in this video I just like to watch these kinds of videos so why not make some like it too right?! And again, in the future there will be a detailed list of all products used/mentioned in posts.

 

 

 

 



 

 

The Dream

Have you ever had a dream? Something you are striving for? Something you are so passionate about that you are unstoppable and as determined as you have ever been to reach that dream. I’ve never had that. I’ve never had that one dream (or multiple dreams for that matter) that I was striving for. It wasn’t that I didn’t want a dream, in fact I’ve always yearned for it an envied the people who had dreams and were reaching them. Sometimes I’d even go so far as to be mad at those people because I was just jealous (to be clear I mean celebrities reaching fame and that sort of thing, I never had any bad thoughts to anyone in my personal life reaching a dream, I was/am always truly happy for them). I mean I have had goals and reached those goals, for example getting married and having the type of job that I have. But I’m talking more of what drives me, what makes me passionate. I’ve always had ideas of what I’d like to do but I wasn’t crazy about it. It was like I was going to settle for any possible dream just to say I had a dream. That wouldn’t be fair to myself because if I reached that fake dream then I wouldn’t even feel accomplished or get any gratification from it. There has always been this one idea in the back of my mind but I never thought it was possible, I didn’t think it was in the cards for me so I just didn’t count it as an attainable dream, or a dream at all. BUT I am here to say that I have finally found a dream that I feel is worth working toward!!! I am beyond excited about, unfortunately I can’t exactly go into detail about it at this time but in the next few months things should get started and then I will be able to speak more on it. I feel so relieved that I finally have something to work toward, the ultimate goal! I think about it all the time, it’s consuming me and I love it. And because of that I know that if the avenue I’m wanting to take for it doesn’t work out, I’ll just try to find other avenues instead of giving up.

This dream will ultimately be a source of income, if it turns into something that could support me as a full time job then that would be fantastic, if it only ends up being a side source of extra spending money then that’s awesome too! I just want something extra in my life you know? Like a job that is also a hobby and this will provide that for me. This project also involves partnering up with a friend of mine (and also sister in law) so naturally I’m so excited about that. I get to share every aspect of this particular dream with her and she’ll be able to relate and understand and I feel like that is going to be such a great part of it all.

I didn’t want to jump the gun or count my chickens before they hatch (I’ve always hated that expression, I really don’t know why I chose to use it now lol) but I couldn’t help but daydream. This is my first real dream I’ve ever had so I’m bound to get over excited about it ;) I used my mind to peak into my future and of course I know it might not look how I made it look, God is in charge of that, but it brought a big smile to my face none the less and gave me a vision to keep close for when I’m down on my goals ya know?! My vision was on how a day would look living my dream:

A bit of background- in this vision this dream has become a full time job for me and/or this is me being a stay at home mother with this as a side source of income.

The Vision

I wake up and get ready and dressed, my usual. I make my way over to the kitchen and start brewing my first cup of coffee, as that’s brewing I walk into my office to fire up my computer. After my coffee is made and I settle in at my desk (by the way my office looks super cute in this vision) and check my emails. After that I log into all social media outlets and catch up on comments and the sort as well as making a blog post. I then check my orders and see what all needs to be packaged up and sent out (this is what I can’t divulge in so this vague explanation will have to do). I then go to one of my many spreadsheets and fill out the orders and check inventory and that sort of thing. After this I go to the mail and see what kind of packages I’ve received and lug everything back home. At this point Nancy comes over with some takeout for a mini lunch meeting where she starts freaking out inventory levels and cash sales. I calm her down and we make a breakdown of what we need to do and we come to a solution together. As we finish up our lunch we go over the orders together and then start the packaging process as we chat about life and how pretty my hair looks. That takes a few hours and after we are finally done Nancy takes the packages to the post office on her way out. I take this time to catch up on other blogs and social media sites I like to look at and then I go for coffee with Nellie and Tina because I no longer have a 9-5 job. Nellie asks how business is going and I jump into a conversation with them on how great everything is. We talk for about an hour and then browse some stores and so some window shopping. Then I pop in at Superstore to pick up some ingredients for supper and start making that so I have it ready for when Mark comes home (just in case Mark is reading this- on this particular day in this scenario I have supper ready for you, however, this does not mean I make supper alone every day). Then I spend the evening doing normal non-work things and start the day over again the next day. Obviously every day doesn’t look exactly like this, sometimes I go for coffee with my mom instead of Nellie and Tina ;)

So now that I’ve waaaaay jumped the gun I’m going to get back to my normal life how it is now and just hope and pray that this all works out just the way Nancy and I want it to!

Hope you are having a lovely day. Sure is the perfect day to work toward YOUR dreams!

GRWM (get ready with me)

 

 

Just popping in to share with all of you the latest video I posted on my youtube channel .

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

In the future I'd like to include a list of products used and possibly pictures in case anyone (or myself) would like to reference back to what I used but not actually have to watch the whole video to find out. Unfortunately with me posting this on my break at work it just doesn't leave me with enough time. I just wanted to let you know that these kinds of posts will be more detailed in the future for your viewing pleasure :) Also, is it bothering anyone else that my hair is not perfectly straight on the one side and its looping or doing its own thing? No? Just me? Ok then.

Regular or Dark Roast?

Let’s have coffee!

 

If you were to come over to my “house” (I live in an apartment but always call it a house, it just flows in conversation better) for coffee this is what it might look like:

If we were comfortable with each other you would know to come in the back door so I wouldn’t have to buzz you in, in which case the first sign of your arrival would be your knock on the door. At that point I would yell for you to come in and you could let yourself in. If we were super comfortable with each other you would knock and just walk in because you know just how lazy I am.

If we didn’t know each other super well you would probably enter through the front door in which case you would have to be buzzed in. I’d try to work my buzzing contraption and it may not work the first time. You might wonder what is taking me so long to buzz you in, you may stand in the cold awkwardly or uncomfortably for a few beats before you decide to press the buzzer again. I would then at that point hopefully have figured out my temperamental contraption and have successfully buzzed you in. You would then walk up 3 flights of stairs and knock on my door waiting for me to answer it as you catch your breath. I’d open the door and welcome you in, you might make a remark about how out of shape you are and I would reassure you it happens to everyone but fortunately I am used to it and those stairs are now a breeze for me.

I’d guide you into my living room and we would sit down on my sectional, I would pick the spot I don’t usually sit in and this will make me feel weird, I won’t say anything about it though.  Then I would remember I should offer you coffee and if we were comfortable with each other you would already know to make it yourself because again, I’m a horribly lazy host. However, if we weren’t comfortable with each other or just met I would get up and ask you how you like your coffee. I would brew it in my Tassimo and I’d offer you regular or dark roast.  I would offer you whipping cream or powdered cream and then possibly tell you about how I finally (after months and months and months) remembered to pick up powdered cream so that I had a backup for when my whipping cream was out.

I wouldn’t offer you any food, I wouldn’t even think about it or think it to be rude. If I had thought about it I would hope you weren’t hungry but since I most likely hadn’t thought about it obviously I wouldn’t care (and I mean that in the nicest way possible).

I would ask you how you are doing, if you aren’t much of a talker you would say “good and you?”  and I would take that as an invitation to tell you how I truly am doing because I like to talk. I would most likely tell you about my work situation, that I am out of a job in a week with nothing lined up for after. I would tell you that I hope I don’t go too long without a job because I don’t have any other source of income and we were finally able to start catching up from me being off work for 6 months during the summer. I would also tell you that I’m not worried though, that I truly have put my faith in God and I know He has a plan for me. So He will tell me where He wants me to go in His own time. I would tell you that I will wait patiently and I will see where God takes me. Then I might tell you that a year ago this wouldn’t have been an easy task for me, I would have been worried and budgeting and getting frustrated because my budgeting wouldn’t work without a job. I would be stressed about the unknown and the lack of prospect jobs.

That conversation would remind me of personal growth and I would possibly tell you about how my patience tolerance has been getting better. I would tell you about how I prayed for the job I have now, that I wanted it so badly, that I begged God to make this be the job I was to get. And then when I got it I was so upset because it wasn’t what I thought it would be but I put my faith in God and I LISTENED (for ONCE in my life lol) and I stuck it out and this job ended up being a blessing in disguise. I would tell you how work has tested my patience and I have exceeded my own expectations with flying colors.  I would tell you how it took me almost 3 months to realize it was God answering my prayers because I had prayed for exactly that- patience J

Maybe at that point you would have something to say and we would talk about your life happenings. We would maybe talk about the weather but I would hope not since that is so generic and since you know me well enough to come to my house for coffee I would expect we don’t need to speak generically. I wouldn’t tell you this but you would just find out on your own, if you had any reservations about coming over for fear of nothing to talk about, those fears would melt away after you see just how much I can talk. We might get on the subject of makeup because from your place on the couch you would be able to look directly into my makeup room. You might ask who’s room is that and I would respond with “mine!” You would look confused because you would know I am married and then I would go on to explain. I would even take you into the room itself and I’d open drawers for you to look into and I’d watch your facial expressions when you see just how much makeup I have. I would be a little embarrassed and also a little proud, I wouldn’t tell you that though. You might say you would never know what to do with so much makeup and I would tell you I just keep wanting more and more. I might make my justifications to you or I might just let it be. You might take that opportunity to ask me some makeup related questions and I would offer my best advice.

After we sat back on the couch I would tell you I make YouTube videos and that would launch a whole social media conversation. I would most definitely ask you if you have Vine and if you said no I would make you download it. I would first tell you to follow me and then after that I would tell you to look at who I am following and just follow all of those people. I would gauge your sense of humor and if I thought it appropriate  I would then show you vines from my favorite viner Tom Vrab (and if you have not seen his vines you must go watch them immeditately!). If your sense of humor was not at all like mine I would maybe refrain from talking about Vine at all lol...

Our conversation would most definitely turn to TV, I would ask you if you have seen The Walking Dead and if you had we would delve into a passionate conversation and I would ask you who you hope dies next (never would I thought I would ask such questions, what has TV turned me into ?! Who am I!? Oh well I love it). I would tell you my favorite character is Daryl and I would guess that yours is Glen.  I would then proceed to ask if you have ever seen Sons of Anarchy and I would gasp in shock if you said no. As I walk over to my drawer of TV seasons I would offer to borrow them to you immediately not really taking no for an answer.

As our coffee date winds down I would tell you I had a lot of fun and we should definitely do it again sometime. I wouldn’t be lying either because I wouldn’t say it otherwise. You would agree because you think I’m so awesome ;)

First Video

I have set a few goals for myself to upload videos to my YouTube channel more often ( my channel ) and with that I'd like to dedicate posts on my blog specifically to my channel and kind of direct traffic more easily, with more 'flow' if you will. This is my first time uploading a YouTube video to my blog so I'm a bit nervous and a bit excited to see if I did this correctly lol! I'm not going to make any promises but I do have another video edited and I'm hoping to be able to upload it today so be on the look out for that. It would be uploaded to my YouTube channel first before it would reach my blog though just an FYI. I'll keep the talking to a minimum and just let the video do that talking for me :) 

 

 

 

 

 

Hope you enjoyed the video and have a great day. Today is my Dad's Birthday so we will be heading over there in the evening for supper and cake!

Resolutions

I know, I know, I know New Years resolutions in February?!?!  Well I got the idea after watching a youtube video to do a few resolutions and that was after New Years and I wanted to put some thought into it before just posting whatever came to mind. So after a great deal of thought (1 month to be exact) I have narrowed down my list! Would you like to read it? I'm sure you're just jonesing for a list so who am I to deprive you of that?

First a bit of back story:

I recently got a job after 6 months of being on unemployment so we are currently playing catch up. Unfortunately this is a term position so by the end of this month I will need to have another job lined up. If/when I get this new (permanent) job I plan on getting internet installed at our place and that way I can blog more consistently from home instead of sporadically at work. That being said, here we have The List:

2014 New Years Resolutions

-Blog more consistently (I wont put a certain number of posts per week but I'd like to at least aim for twice a week for now).
-Upload YouTube videos more consistently Again, wont be specific but I'd like to aim for once a week for now).
-Become more tech savvy in the world of blogging.
-Work on making my blog look more visually appealing (lots of ideas in the works for this!)
-Expand my makeup knowledge and techniques and go outside my comfort zones (this is for self growth and also to help the growth of my YouTube channel as well as when friends ask me to do their makeup for functions (which is happening more and more) ).
-Stop setting unrealistic savings plans (ie. setting a date to have X amount of $) and instead focus on making weekly budgets and just putting money into savings as I go and see where I end up (I'd like to thank my friend Nellie for opening my eyes to this).
-Taking more pictures with my actual camera as opposed to my camera on my phone (this one will prove to be difficult I already know).
-Being more active in terms of not just sitting on my couch after work in the evenings, go out, be with people, go to the gym, whatever!
-Being more active in my Christianity. Not just opening my Bible on days of Bible study.
-Read more (I don't know what it is but I have not been in the mood and I have a stack of books that is just piling up).



That is all for my resolutions. I could add way more to that list but I'll just keep it to this so I don't get overwhelmed. I have this feeling that 2014 isn't going to be a good year for me so if I can focus on these few things then maybe they can help to brighten up my days. I'd really like to grow my blog and my youtube channel so I know that will be exciting for me. Of course I'll be also focusing on bettering myself as a person but this isn't just a resolution this is an every day of my life type thing.

I think that is all for now and I hope to be posting a another post next week!

Ps. my YouTube channel is BeautyByDez2 if you're interested in checking it out ;)

Pps. Sorry for the lack of pictures, I'm not blogging from home, there will definitely be more picture filled posts in the future though, just bare with me!